>>>#4/4/21 In the absence of chemical stimulus, I feel so ordinary

 Can it be possible that all my experiences are just a play of the mind?  That I am nobody special and there were no epiphanies whatsoever?

Or is it possible that my whole life is one big paradox and I am indeed a special person who is also mentally distressed?

I need a model for me to refer to.  The only two that I can think of are Rasputin and Mr KePala ButUH.  Not very encouraging.

I'll watch Phenomenon in addition to Rasputin, the Mad Monk.

I am starting a new habit, the Elliptical Interval.  So, so lazy...  I'll give it until 6:15 am.  I am low in sugar.  I feel like eating the Salted Egg Fish Skin.

Shit, I need to control myself.  Between the diet and the exercise, the diet is more important.  So I forgo the exercise.  Instead, I'll do the *[house] house chore.

*  Perhaps after doing the house chore, I have the mood to exercise.  If **no[w] (not) we'll watch the movies after that.

**  OK we'll watch the movie.

Sharudin Jamal

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Morning baby. I had my usual Sunday ranting with Sarah. I roped *[] (you) in the email conversation. * Sarah is pretty chirpy this morning. We are watching this movie: https://youtube.com/watch?v=MEoT3d0GrfM… Hope you like it. Me likey...