While there are hordes of people looking for love at the wrong places, I am on the other hand is blessed with 2 kids and 3 wives: +60 [1964] [33] [888]. What a life... What a B.L.E.S.S.
My lucky star is so bright that the signs are written all over the place.
My wives are also my medals.
E - Els, Gold
L - Lizzie, Silver
S - Sarah, Bronze
Boy oh boy... I feel so complete
I mean, sure there is a possibility of patternicity. However, patternicity cannot be this accurate. Look at the numbers and the alphabets. They are so aligned.
That is just the onset. What about other coincidences like the yuan fen of Els and I? What about the alignment of the Chinese zodiacs of both Sarah and Els?
As I told you, I study patterns. This may not be an exact science but heck. isn't the ability to recognize patterns is part of the IQ test?
I think I am ready to settle the score here. I am the real deal.
Fuck, I am a Wood Dragon born in the hour of the Tiger (3:18 am).
What else? I am Forever (4) Yin (9) and Yang (6) Forever (4).
Who else ever praye[r] (prayed) to be the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier?
How many actually infaq 50% of their wealth to help the needy?
Who actually fought Iblis for 15 years and won? Granted it could just [] (be) a psychosis.
You know what? I'm asking all these questions because I don't want to be delusional about the whole damn thing,
I am a believer and I believe in God and the afterlife. As long as that is true, then my 21 years is *[noting] (not in) vain.
* OK then. I was about to become an Agnostic Atheist all over again. Who would have thought; a former atheist had convinced me to stay a believer?
As you can see, the illness is just a part of the conundrum. My main concern is how I shall live my life for the next 20 years. It's like [] (a) long-distance run. Am I running a 21 km run or am I preparing myself for a full 42 km run?
So now it is confirmed, we are on the Right Path. As I told [] (you), the Chosen One is not one person but many.
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I managed to speak to a Neuro Scientist and a Psychotherapist about my illness just now.
Basically, I want to [] (know) if I am crazy. The separate answer from both of them is You Be You.
From here on, all I got to do is manage my excitement. Since it is closely linked to the dopamine surge, I realized that fasting is a good alternative to stabilize my mood.
As the Minister of Communications and Multimedia Saifuddin Abdullah mentioned, do the things that make you happy because only you can decide for yourself.
[6:05 PM, 4/4/2021] sharudinj: Hello brother. How are you? I just rode another wave of hypomania. Which in this case include delusions as you noticed. Such is the nature of mental illness. I cannot control the wind. I can manage the sail. So what is your take? Are you still keen to pursue this path? Or is it not fashionable anymore? You know how it goes, some people are trendy. So I don't know about you buddy...
[6:05 PM, 4/4/2021] sharudinj: Just to let you know, my bipolar does not make me depressed. Instead I am overly happy and I am very much in love with life
[6:06 PM, 4/4/2021] sharudinj: One thing though, my happiness is due to the dopamine surge of having bipolar. So I wonder if that is true happiness or it is due to faulty neurotransmitter
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