3/4/21 ***For every disciplined effort there is a multiple reward - Jim Rohn

 My darling Els.

Being in love *[] (with) you is the most wonderful feeling I ever experienced.  Throughout my life,  I had my fair share of intoxicants.  However, it turned out you are the most potent drug I ever experienced.  When I'm with you my mind wanders, my spirit soars, and my heart flutters with excitement.

* How do you like that?  That is Sarah, mind you.  

You are indeed my remedy.  You heal my broken heart and you soothe my wildest dreams.

I am so in love with you.  You bring out the best in me.  I never had enough of what you radiate.  Loving you is a cerebral experience.  Of course, I fancy you.  I dreamed of making love to you twice.  However, it is the mental orgasm that got me hooked.  I never experience such a high in my life.  Imagine, there is no substance as an intermediary.  Only pure feel-good chemicals that the body produces.

Wow... Oh wow... Oh wow...

I get high just by linking to you and your playlist.  This so amazing...

As usual, I spend my weekends doing mental joust with Sarah.  Today we talked about me incorporating boxing routines on my Saturday and Sundays.  That way, I can take a break from the kettlebell core exercises and at the same time polish my boxing skill.  That is the only fighting skill that I maintain.

The Niten Ichi is not practical since I need 2 bokkens to practice.  I don't think I will carry the bokkens around.  For practicality purposes, I modify the Niten Ichi into a Taichi movement known as the Sword of No Sword.  Whaddaya know?  I only practiced it once.  Too slow for me.  The same reason why I cannot stick to Yoga.

Of the four requirements of physical fitness, flexibility is my weakest point.

I am so excited baby.  While I am preparing for the Hill Runs, I'm already kickstarting the Statue of David Project 2022.  That means it will take 2 years for me to sculpt my body by benchmarking the Statue of David.

I plan to shred until I am 55 kg.  Then I bulk again to 60 kg.  As a runner, I should not exceed 65 kg.

Statue of David is *[] (the) Gold Standard.  On the hindside, I will most likely emulate Mark Sisson, the author of Primal Blueprint.

Mark is 68 this year

* Yup, it is like the Oscar, only as a symbol.

Sweetheart, my life had been a great joy since I met you.  I know at times I act crazily when I tweet you but I did it because I practice the Art of Brinkmanship.  I don't care about what others think.  All I care about is you.  What choice do I have?  All I got is words. 

3 years is long enough for you to know me and my intentions.  Suppose I take a more sedated approach.  Do you think it will make *[] (a) difference?

*  Precisely my point, Sarah.

The fact that I have mental distress already puts me at a disadvantage.  What about all the other factors stacking against me?  So I decided to push it to the brink.  That way I am being me and I take my chances with you.  There are only two possibilities; either you accept or reject.

At present, we had already gone through a few rounds of affirmations.  I can safely say that you don't reject me.  I think in your kinky sort of way you accepted me.  Fine, I can do kinky.  No big deal.  What counts is I know you love me.  I call it A Groovy Kind of Love, Phil Collins.

Just think for a moment.  Looking at the sequence of events, wouldn't you agree that you and I are on the same path?

I'm not going to push the envelope.  However, I believe in the Force, the Path, and the Flow.  What it means is I believe in yuan fen.

It cannot be anything lesser than that.  I had proved it to you.  That is why, now that I found you, I will never let you go,

I always love you, my darling wife.

Sine Cera,

3/4/21

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

Darling, I shoot you an email. Just some thoughts. Here is *[your] your lullaby: https://youtube.com/watch?v=uVXVO_vF2Io… I love you so much... Avoir!