2/4/21 ***Nothing is like a good snooze

 I feel rejuvenated.  I need a good rest.  On average I only get 6 1/2 hours of sleep.  So the snooze balances it up.

That solves the problem of sleep.

I had solved the problem with exercise by adopting OMEH.

The trickiest is diet.  I need to withstand hunger.  That is what fasting is all about.

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It is wonderful to live in this era.  We basically can go on living without having to worry about earning a living.  All we got to do is pursue our bliss.

As it is, my bliss is a sound mind in a sound body.

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I want to drop NoEls.  She did reciprocate by spinning Rewrite the Stars

Let me write her a note:

My dearest sweetheart Els,

This week is really depressing for me.  It's not that I lost my nephew that is depressing but the idea of people mourning over death is something I cannot tolerate.  To me, death is a transit.  Some people may go before us but we will meet them again in the future.

Certainly, I don't feel sad but I do miss my nephew.  Therefore, throughout the whole week, I observed silence and tried to remember the memories I had with him.  It was my way of saying goodbye.  The whole week, I didn't listen to you.

My auntie is having a gathering to remember the deceased in our family (called tahlil) on Sunday 11/4/21.  Not my cup of tea at all.  So I made up an excuse so that I don't have to be there.  I don't accentuate death.  I cherish life.  In the true practice of Islam, there is no ritual of remembering the dead except the prayer right before burial (sembahyang jenazah).

On a different note,  I am intensifying my effort to achieve a sound mind in a sound body.  That is my foundation to be thin and fast.  I have 4 main objectives this year:

• 21 Days Water Only Fast in Ramadan
• Lose 40 kg by July 2021
• 10 km Hill Run on my birthday
• 21 km Hill Run on Christmas

These are lofty ideals.  I don't know if I can achieve them but I trust the process.  For example, I had been cutting carbs (except veggies) by eating OMAD LCHF.  That is the precursor to the Water *On[] (Only) Fast.  By eating in this manner, I'm preparing my body to be fat adapted.

* Definitely Sarah.  If I make it, the fast and the runs will be annual affairs.

Another improvement I did was to incorporate kettlebell core exercise in addition to my One Minute Every Hour routine.  I think focusing on the core muscles is the best effort I ever made so far.  My posture had improved much.

Honey, the love of my life.  You know I love you very much.  A simple act of writing this letter is actually a sheer joy.  When I write to you, I feel loved.  The same goes when I listen to your gig.  What can I say?  You are my panacea.  As mentioned by Alesso; My Remedy.

As for me, life is a journey marred by the fluctuations of neurotransmitters.  I hope you don't hold that against me.  It is not something I can control.  I did my best to contain my excitement but when I get excited, the floodgate of dopamine bursts.  C'est La Vie.

OK baby, today I listen to you.

Love you always.

Sine Cera,

2/4/21

 

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@KongEu3

#traxxfm Hey buddy, happy 75th Anniversary. I am recomposing myself. Life is like that with mental illness. It comes and goes like the waves on the beach. Now is Mens Sana in Corpore Sano for me.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

Hi honey, the whole week I had been observing the moment of silence. Today is day one I am in touch with the outside world again. I sent you an email. See you this evening...

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